today is Dear dear birthday... this yr he is 25th yrs old... but he is getting older... trying to give him a gift which i make it myself... but it is in school... and yet Felicia still dont want to help me to bring it back and pass it to me at my house.... if she does... i really appreciate it lor... now i got nothing in hand to pass it to dear dear... but i had written him a testimonial in friendster...

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE

Lately speaking to Ju alot of things... Ju said since Eric is catching up with his friends... i should also catch up with my friends and meet them out and have a chat... but all my friends doesnt use to catch up with each other... this is wad i feel... and i am also feeling that i dont have and close friends like what dear dear he had... all my friends are just simply friends.... i still remember when i am in Sec Sch... i doesnt talk to my friends anymore since Sec3... i use to be alone during studying... seldom call my friends up... unless they do so to look for me... After school just go home straight away... i dont miss any school life.... i dont feel that schools does give me any good memories... i am so envy him eric is because his friends will call him often and ask him out... not like me... my phone can be very slient accept he is the one who is calling... before i know my dear dear... my phone can totally slient for the whole day not a single call will ring... sound that i am boring person am i right....? I still thinking does any of my friends still remember my birthday and will they still call me out or give me a surprise during my birthday... even though this yr birthday i celebrated with dear dear and cousin and his boyfriend at mount faber... i am happy just that this yr i got no wishes... i didnt wish for anything... this is not the only year i dont have a birthday cake so i am ok with it... by the way i hate special occasions...

Life for me is like study, eat and den sleep... nothing interesting in myself... asking where to go any ideas... i really dunno... my ideas is very limited... alot of place i never been before... my life and others life just cannot be compare... i really miss my primary school life which i can play with my friends at the badminton court and basketball court just near my house... but when time fly... everything wasnt the same anymore...

if anyone who read this blog... i apologise to all which i hurt... i am trying to treasure everything beside me... those happiness memories... but i hope my dear dear can appreciate what i had done for him so far and treasure this relationship... please dont treat everything like it should be the way.... the feeling is hurtful...